I Need A Strong Warrior

Help father!
I'm being swallowed up by my life.

I'm drowning.
I can't stay above water.
I can tread for a day...... maybe two.
I feel the strength.
Your strength
Holding my head above water.  I can see the sky, smell the fresh air.
I'm in a big ocean, but I have perspective

I make plans in my energy
Commitments in my fortitude

But I'm starting to get so tired, God
Straining to stay afloat.
I need to find land
The ocean seems massive, endless

Panic sets in, thrashing
Rest is essential, but there is no land in sight 
All I am is worn
Longing to feel the ease and stamina of the tread, the strength in my arms again

My life is planned
Locked into commitments
Needed
What was once anticipation is now obligation
Responsible

I've got nothing to give
I can only disappoint

I'm drowning in this small life that is too big for me.

Christina, 

Don't fret or worry.  Instead of worrying, pray.
Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns.  Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down.  It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.
Phil 4:6-7 MSG


Don't be afraid dear Christina.  Don't despair.
Your God is present with you.  A strong warrior there to save you.
Happy to have you back, He'll calm you with His Love and delight you with His songs.
Zephaniah 3:16-17 MSG