There is no room in love for fear. Well-formed, perfect love banishes fear. Since fear is crippling, a fearful life—fear of death, fear of judgement, fear of punishment—is one not yet fully formed and perfected in love.
1 John 4:18 (MSG, NLT)
I could go through my pictures from the past few years, and tell you about how day after day I receive beautiful notes, reminders from Heaven.
"You are so Loved," they all say
It's in the times, though, when I feel the most undeserved of Love.
Those times when I act mean and selfish. When I act like the Christina I don't want to be anymore.... Those times when in the depths of my being, I would believe that I deserve to be judged and punished for what I just did.. or didn't do..... When I feel I should be rejected or abandoned (I know, this sounds harsh, and you are probably thinking.. "Wow, she has some issues!"..... But I'm talking about deep deep down, beyond what I think, beyond my reasoning and logic.... deep deep down to what my heart believes..... sometimes without me even realizing it.)
When I try and strive in my own effort to make things right again.. to make myself better.
Those are the times that I need this verse, 1 John 4:18, to be graphted in the very fibres of my heart.
There is no fear in Love, but Perfect Love casts out fear, for fear has to do with punishment
I have to remind myself that God's Love for me, His blessing and kindness to me, have nothing to do with me, how well I behave or deserve it.
He is Love
He just Loves me because He is Love
He created me because He is Love
He gave His Son for me because He is Love
He wants me to Trust in this Love that doesn't waver like my "goodness"
This Love that is like a giant unmovable rock
His Love never changes... even though I do (constantly!)
And it's that kind of Immovability, that kind of Faithfulness, that Consistency that expels all the fears inside.
That Supernatural Strength of Love that I can build something on.
It's keeping my eyes on that kind of Love that already judged and punished His Son for every sin, every weakness, every undeserved part of me, because He Loves me
That kind of Love makes me free
He Loves Us!
Father, can You open me up wide to receive this Love of Yours
XOXOXO
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